Sunday, July 5, 2026

Hewo hewo my darlings, („- ֊ -„) it would seem like i'm at the beggining of a 'bad mood cycle', which means that for a lil ill be feeling a lil less optimistic until i begin to feel better.

This is a very common thing for Ashley, for she has been diagnosed with depression and it is to expect that i am in a more gloomey humour during these periods of time. Should you worry about it? Not at all. As common as my spirit goes down it eventually goes back up. Besides,,, its not like i always have access to the companionship i've for long wish for, so what else can i do other than try to become as least dependant as possible? Well,,, i made Spotties alright,, its the only thread from which my life is hanging,, otherwise i really don't know what i'd do with myself or my life.

( ._. )"" I am not smart, nor fun, nor anywhere remarkable for which i'd deserve to be remembered for at all if not for only, a small and humble place such as this where maybe, just maybe, it bares any meaning the purpose of its existance, where as perhaps i can turn someone's day even if just a tiny bit brighter.
Because ofcourse, whatever is there about my good-for-nothing self that should be any memorable if not for anything positive i may be capable of doing... righty? ( ´-｀)

I should probably tell to myself: Come on Ashley ( ´-ω-), come on,, come onnn,,, you've gotten this far,, hang in there just a teeny tiny bit longer,, your efforts are beggining to flourish and your existance is being awknolodged by more people than ever,, you can do it stay strong sis.. yeah,, uhh,, maybe? yes?? i can do it?? can i be happy?? (つ╥﹏╥)つ

Ahem,, (ᵕ•᷄ᴗ•᷅ ) dear reader (yes, you), thanks a lot for your time and for reading through my silly rant, i look forward to keep looking ahead of myself and hopefully find myself at comfort ♡♡♡. until next time!